Monday, June 1, 2009

Best Friend

Best friends are a important part of life.  When I was little that is what I wished for, a best friend.  Someone who I could be vulnerable around, someone I could be around always, and stand up for.  Back in those elementary days I never had a best friend.  I never met anyone who did not want someone cooler, prettier, or smarter to call their number one.  It just did not click.  But then I changed schools and found someone who I could actually be around and never get sick of.  
I suppose finding that one person who you always want to talk to more, is kind of like falling in love.  It is certainly less shallow than those high school romances which I have found myself a part of.   Best friends last forever; and perhaps this is because you do not ever want to kiss your best friend, so you never have to worry about the physical attraction half of a relationship.  When I say this to the average adult (the part about best friends lasting forever) they give me the line about how their high school friendships never worked out, and tell me stories about fights and falling outs.  I really hope that this does not happen to me and Cole.  At this point, we have survived: attempts at social climbing, gossip, our awkward stages, boyfriends (only on her side), different sports, popularity, dances, races, and much more.  We have talked about the endless subjects of God and moralities.  And the constant problems of boys and other friends.  We have spent so many non-memorable hours together.  When we are around the other we can be angry, truthful, confused, jubilant, sexy, tearful, hormonal, perverted, thankful, pure, and sly.  She is the only person I can cry in front of, willingly.  She is the only person I never really get annoyed with.  When jealousy comes between us we nod to it as a complement.  In many ways we are the opposites- she is short, and flawless.  She knows how to talk to boys she likes without acting like a fool.  She has had luck in finding guys who like her  back.  She has great style, and is popular.  But in other ways we are the same- we laugh at  the same things, and comfort each other at the right times.  Both of us are gifted athletes and have a knack at making friends.  Personally, I do not like letting people get close.  I like to keep others a arms length away, it is easier and less painful to pull away.  She is the only person who I can subconsciously allow to come close.  Some things about our futures are uncertain.  What college will we go to, who we will marry, how many kids will we have, what kind of job will we have.  But something will remain constant-which is comforting because genuine best friends are few and far between-we will be there for each other.

1 comment:

  1. fyi: i think you need to change your settings so that the general public can view your blog... because I can't click on your link on my "google friend contact" thingy. that might be why... in order to find you i had to guess your url... anyway, that might make you easier to find/read. :D

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